well. i'm back.

Hello. Hi there.

I know I said I would not be on here for a while, but ah cain't quit yew. I've not only outed myself as completely Crazy, but now also a liar for being back so soon. So I'm breaking my vow of silence on here. But not on Facebook. Because, fuck that shit. 

You know what I have learned? That I don't miss being on Facebook at all. I thought it would be really hard for me because I felt almost compulsive about getting on there and clicking to see what everyone is up to. But it's been the opposite - I feel like I'm free from having to keep up, and I am instead focusing on stuff I want to do instead of wasting hours looking at nonsense. In a few weeks, I will probably bring it back because many of my family and friends live far away and it's an easy way to see their pictures and what they're up to. But it will be much more dialed back this time. And I want at least a month away from it just to keep my head clear.

Being back on here is good though, because this is an outlet for me. I like writing. I like talking with you guys. I know it makes me the ficklest pickle in all the land. But I'm okay with that. 

So here are a few things I've been up to since I went Crazy and felt like I needed a break:

- I've been hanging out with my kids way more. Did you know that if you spend a shit-ton of time in front of a computer but still in the same room as your family that it doesn't count as spending time together? Yeah. So we've been doing things together more like building Lego castles and reading books and making art together. It's been great.

- Since I'm not wasting a bunch of time at night being on the computer, I have been sewing and being crafty at night after the kids are in bed. This is my first attempt at embroidery, and I made it for my friend Carolyn's birthday because she is a bestie and besties need embroidered swears:

- I have declared 2013 the year of Gettin' Shit Done and it's awesome to be chipping away at my list of ideas and things to do instead of just thinking about them. I painted my living room and dining room over the Christmas break and my house is very slowly looking more like my house and less like we just stole it from the former owners and put our stuff in it.

- Right this very moment, I am in the process of baking the cake for Julian's 9th birthday. After changing his mind 892375429374 times, he has finally decided on having a vanilla cake with caramel filling and white chocolate buttercream icing, with the TARDIS from Doctor Who on the top. I have been busting ass trying to get stuff ready in time, but Audrey has had a fever for the last 6 days and has a really wicked ear infection, and pretty much the only thing I've been doing has been holding her for a week. But even though that sounds overwhelming and terrible, it's been really nice just to be present in the moment and be with each of them. They are little treasures and I don't want to squander any of my time with them while they're young by not being fully present.


Thanks for all the emails and encouragement during my tiny break (both internet and mental. heh.).